unreliable

'in order to avoid the conflict, we should try to trust others eventhough it's not hundred percent'

ni ayat last sy mase behavioral science hari tu, sbb dah rase cuak lps asek kene attack dgn lecturer, itu yg terkeluar. and yet sy diuji..

khamis mlm, org lain sebok smbut new year, sy sebok nk balik rumah. on the way ke Putra, adah, anie n dijat join(thanxx). but then, kne tinggal sorang2 jugak. sy jmp bdk batch, tp bas dy pukul 10. never mind, sy balik dulu. lbih kurang 9.15 mlm, sy decide msuk bas sbb xleh withstand smokers yg sgt ramai. xsanggup jadi passive smoker, boleh rosak lungs duk lame2 kat situ ^_^

bile dh ambik seat, mcm biase akn ada org yg mintak sumbangan, jual buku etc2. ada sorang pak cik ni duk edar kertas doa selamat, sy ambik dan bace jap, kira menghargai apa yg dia bagi, lps tu lipat dan letak kat tepi beg (pak cik tu mcm suka je tgk sy bwt mcm tu. rase dihargai agknye..=] ). baru je nk sumbat telinga dgn mp3, sorang perempuan 20-an, tibe2 duk seat sebelah,

ni paper yg pak cik tu kasi

dgn sgt kalutnya dy describe psl diri dy dlm bhs kelantan yg sgt pekat, sungguh sy xsempat tangkap sgt ape yg die bebel. yg smpat sy dengar, 'akak tertinggal bas pagi tadi~akak nk mintak tlg~kalau driver tny ckp akak naik bas skali gn adik~etc2~adik turun bachok kn?~ nnti smpai sane akak byr balik~'

bila dgr ayt last kakak ni, sah nak pinjam duit, rse mcm nk tny jgk 'sy ni muke atm ke kak?'. but then, sy jwb maaf kak, sy xleh tolong. akak tu mcm buat ekspresi muka yg pelik.

sampai skrng sy terfikir, mmg susah nk percaya seseorang, n yet, kenapa akak tu mcm tak cuak langsung bila sy kata xleh tolong, tp trus jalan mcm tu je. kalau org yg betul2 desperate, msti dh cuak atau nangis. entahlah..

apa2 pn, it's a part of life bila kita diuji mcm tu. kalau akak tu guna pukau atau ilmu yg pelik2 tu hbislah sy mlm tu..but then, alhamdulillah..bila cerita dkt my umi, of course, dy nasihat sy pnjang lebar ^_^

'we shouldn't believe outsiders' i think i should alter the words that i've mentioned above.

pen off~

the 1st 2 weeks

sem 2 dah bermula dgn 'best'nya. mcm biasa, 4th row tu tmpt sy(don't ever sit there lah, haha). alhamdulillah hari first dh ada lecture. physio, hbis 3 tjuk kcil, tambah pulak dgn anat, femoral triangle. rase mcm tak pernah blajar pun ada jugak -_-. bak kata kak an, tu lah medical school, cuti sape sruh tak bace buku, adehs..minggu first mmg rase sgt lain, tu baru 2 weeks cuti, blum lg 2 months. sighed** i've to cope with this a.s.a.p lah. bila dpt time table, first thing tengok-cuti of course! mid sem 2 weeks, final sem, 2 months ^_^. then baru realise ada subject baru-halaqah(instead of titas and ict) n of course cocurricular activity-bowling. first time msuk clas halaqah bru tahu-blajar dlm arabic rupeny, tp sgt bersyukur sbb dpt lecturer yg sportng hbis(ex-kisas tuh). 

the 2nd week, bermulalh era practical-buat experiment and report -_-. dh lame tak msuk dissection room dan hidu bau formalin yg mampu bwt sume org mengalirkan air mata, (silent tears agaknye) ^_^. dissect bahagian thigh, sgt mencabar sbb makin banyak muscles besides nama yg sgt la weird. one more thing, kne jaga pandangan mata jgk ^_^. hari rabu, tgh syok dgr en.jurulatih bowling duk cerita psl lane etc2, tiba2 dpt msg, 'result dh tampal kat noticeboard'. rase mcm nk lari balik campus je. but then, anie, my roomates tlg tengokkn. credits to her~ everything seems ok except physio, makneny kne usaha lg lah tu. 

the best thing in 2nd semester : lots of holidays! end up, minggu ni sy balik rumah. alasan : saje. my family is everything. plus lel kata lps dpt result kne balik rumah ^_^

congrates to all those who could achieve their own target~

i've to complete the journal, entry for this week : beauty lies on the eyes of the beholder (is that true?). still, searching the ideas..

p/s: attracted dgn kata2 seorang rakan, blog ni tempat utk org meluahkn perasaan ke? you judge it, haha

huhu

 061209, tarikh yg xakn di lupa. banyak bende berlaku, tp banyak jugak pengajaran yg dapat. walaupn terpaksa dgr bebelan flight crew yg mengada2,walaupn end up crying all the way back to hostel, walaupn mcm dh kena heart attack bile masuk bilik sebab loker dah brubah warna, walaupn terpaksa mendobi sendiri baju2 yg xpakai lg, dan bermacam2 walaupn lg, still kena akur dgn ketentuanNya..

kita hanya merancang, Allah yg menentukan..

to my dear achik: i'm really2 sorry, i wish i could bring back the time, but..i can't

pen off~

rain again and again

 

 Dikhabarkan dari Aisyah r.a mengatakan bahawa Rasulullah s.a.w apabila melihat hujan, baginda berkata:”Semoga hujan yang bermanfaat.”

                                                                         (al-Bukhari)  

it's raining heavily out there but still, having fun at home ^_^. 3 days left before i've to face the 2nd semestr. the subjects are getting tougher, and the most important thing is the 'natijah' is coming soon. i really hope that i will pass all the subjects and i do feel worry about my Biochemistry.sungguh.tak tipu.well, as my Umi always said, you've done your best and now just pray for the best then..

pen off~

turning 19 when the Eid Adha comes~

Alhamdulillah, praised towards almighty Allah swt, I'm 19 today. I've received many kinds of wishes ^_^ and I would like to thank all those who have sent sms, comments through fb, ym etc, you're really appreciated(xlarat nak senaraikn nme korng..) May the blessing of Allah fills our life with happiness and opens the door of success now and always.

Owh, there's some of my friends asked me:

what's ur wishes for your 19's?

and I just simply said(without further thinking):

~I could reach 20's (knapekah?)

~I could finish this becoming 2nd semester

~and the most ridiculous one: I wish this holiday won't finish ^_^

promoting my kuceng..it's soo cute, don't deny it. haha

lastly, I would like to wish pain happy 19th birthday too ^_-
slm EidulAdha to all

pen off~